I know it's been a while since I last updated.....but i've been extremely busy!  I will probably give ya'll a good update ASAP!  Just cause ya'll don't know notta about my life right now!

Hmm......Volleyball is going on.....which makes me even busier.

I'm currently "single/single"  As in i'm not "talking" to anyone or notta.

Hmm.....senior yr. is comin up.......

They said school might not start back as planned, due to construction problems.  Middle hall stairwell collapsed the other day, we heard bout it durin' v/ball practice.  So obviously the school is not safe enough for about 800 students.

Hooker is 18 now.....she got a tattoo.

Jake is 19 now...he's still a bum.

 && i'm attempting to find a college that I like.  Which is harder than it sounds.  Plus i'd like to major in something that I really like, but i'm still not sure.

I either wanna be a doctor, RN, or psychiatrist.

Dunno yet......

I'll update bigger later!!

Love ya'll!!

The problem with guys is they
make you believe they love you
when they don’t.
The problem with girls is they
make you believe they don’t
love you when they do

^Amen to that quote^^

Howdy Ya'll!!

Well......I just got back from Florida.  I got lots of sun, and saw loads of mexicans *lol*  Really.....like I thought we was gettin over-run with 'em up here, but oh, hell no!  I had alot of fun though......we stayed in Destin, Fl. and our motel was right on the beach, so it was grand!  We stayed out on the beach and drank wine coolers all night one of those nights!!  The beach is beautiful at night!!  We ate at the Hard Rock Cafe twice while we was down there......they got the best frys ever & pig sandwiches!! *lol*  And hott waiters! *wink*

Now that i'm home, I plan on stayin just mostly either around the house or with my friends.  Today I took mom to Ashland this mornin, and we practically bought out walmart's paint section!!  I'm re-doing my room in purple & black and we bought loads of stuff, lol.  When we got home, me & Corey went 4-wheelin' and he showed me this new trail, and it came out right behind one of our neighbor's houses, and they was lookin at us really weird, when we came off the pipe-line behind their house, lmao  so we just smiled & waved!!

Mom is gonna buy another new 4-wheeler......cause......iono, cause she can I reckon, nah, Jake wants one, so she's buyin him one.  I think their goin Saturday to go get it.....I dunno yet, but when he gets it, we are gonna go on this huge trail ride around Carter County, and Lewis County, so it'll be loads of fun.  Tomorrow, i'm gonna go pick up Amber & we are gonna go to the Caves and hang out.  I think we'll see if Evie is off work, and she can go with us.  Evie rocks.

Volleyball season is gonna be starting up, and i'm excited.  I love it more than anything, and it always takes my mind off things, cause I stay so busy.  I'm going to work really hard this year at making this one full of memories, because it's my last season.  Plus me & Ashley are captains, so it's really awesome!!  If I dont get to busy lately, i'll update more, but iono.......my life is always hectic.

Hmm......Birthdays.......

Hooks' momma's b-day is FRIDAY *Happy b-day mom!*

J.T.'s b-day is Tuesday.....he'll be 17. *Happy b-day darlin*

Ashley's b-day is Tuesday to, she'll be 17 also! *love ya Ash*

Jake's b-day is July 13th

Hook's b-day is July 15th

....i'm missing people.....I know it, but my mind isn't workin tonight, so ya'll just have 2 wait!

I was born to be stubborn, to be
a little bit mean. push people
to push myself. I was taught never
to take life for granted, to live a
little, to love with everything I had
to never give up, to believe in
myself, but most of all, to fight for myself

AND THAT'S SOMETHING I'VE NOT BEEN DOING.......I've not been fighting for myself, i've just been letting things go by.  It's like......there are a few things going on in my life, that it's like people haven't noticed that I know they done.....and I just haven't stopped it.....or said anything about it.  But i'm changing that, because i've already straightened out one thing that bothered me, and when the chance comes up again, I will straighten out the rest. 

No matter what years we've lived, and no matter what challenges we've been through..........there will always be two-faced liars in the world, who appear true and loyal to the un-knowing eye.

Amen Amen.

IF YOUR Going TO BE TWO-FACED, YOU MiGHT AS WELL MAKE ONE OF THEM PRETTY.

everyone is going to hurt you, you just have
    to decide who is worth the pain .. <33
 

You say i`ve changed; sorry honey
but you never really knew me
in    the    first    place, that girl you met, was just my other half

<Ha! *No offense J.T.*  *lmao!! Love ya darlin!!*

*!Howdy Ya'll!*

Well, it seems I have a problem with updating, lmao, since I never seem to do it anymore!!  I'm leaving for Florida this Thursday!! YAY!  Graduation is over with......Heather is already graduated, depressing.  but NOW IM A SENIOR!! YES!  CLASS OF 2007!!! yay!

Now I just can't wait for one more year to be over, and I walk across the stage.  Yeah, i'll cry, because school is alot of fun, and because I realize it means leaving all my friends behind, and not hardly seeing any of them.  It might also mean leaving this place for me.  I found a college I want to go to, and it's not around here.  It's on the border of Tennessee.......Murray State University......I would get to live with my Aunt Frankie on the weekends, cause she lives in Paris, TN and that's only a little ways from Murray.  I might change my mind, but I dunno yet, as of right now, that's where I wanna go!!

What else.....oh, yeah.  I already broke up with Derrick.  About 2 weeks ago, actually.  You know me, no guy keeps me happy for to long *lol*  Nah, Derrick was super sweet, but I liked him better as a friend.  It looks kinda bad though, cause i'm "talking" to J.T. again.  I can't help it, he's such a sweetie, and he has those dark brown eyes that just kills me.  *lol*  We aren't dating, but we are talking...sorta kinda almost, but not quite dating.  Everyone figures we'll be dating again by the time school rolls around, and who knows?  We might be, or might not.  Right now, J.T. is one of my best friends, and I love him to death.  That boy is something else, that's for sure.  Cause one of my rules is, I wont date the same guy twice, but it seems that rule might be broken.  There goes that *lmao*  Sometimes "bending" the rules is -ok- *wink*

School starts back August 9th.  I'm excited about my senior year, but pissed that i'll be losing Calhoun as an Advisor.  Guess who i'm getting?  MRS. BACK!!  For some odd reason, i'd rather shoot myself in the face than sit in her class for an hour & a half.  *lol*  Me & Amber are gonna try to get out of her class & switched into Evie's class!

I had a party Friday night, and it was loads of fun........to bad "The McCleese" couldn't show up, it's okay cause i'll be having another one sometime after I return from Florida.  Kids around here need somethin to do, ya know?  I mean besides our little rinky dink pool hall, we ain't got nothin!! 

WHICH BY THE WAY!  I BEAT HOOKER AT POOL WITH MY AWESOME PLAYING SKILLS!  TAKE IT HOOK TAKE IT!! HA!

That's bout it for now!!!  LOVE YOU ALL!!

*::...::CaSsIe::...::*

i dont regret the things ive done
i regret the things i didnt do when i had the chance.

lets just drink to get drunk
&& tell each other everything ;;
a  drunken mind speaks a sober heart

God will never take anything
away from you without giving
you something so much better

where is my cowboy?

My tough lovin', hard driven', bull ridin' sexy man...

only in my dreams I suppose.

i pinky promise that when we're
little old ladies we're gonna be
best friends tearing up
the nursing home in our
motorized scooters

forget the risk
take the fall ..
if it's what you want
then it's worth it all

i am fighting like hell for you
and i dont plan on giving up
all i want is me and you forever

Howdy Ya'll!!

It's been a long time since I updated, so I figured i'd clue ya'll in bout my life.  I had been dating J.T. but he wasn't a good boyfriend.  He never called, and never came down, we never went anywhere....etc.

So....I dumped him.  Last monday as a matter of fact.  We was friends after that, and I thought everything was grand cause we was still talking.  He kept asking me back out, but...well...ya'll know me, and I figured since I dumped him once, i'd do it again, so i'd better not risk hurting myself & him anymore.

I was going to prom with this senior, Derrick, so he took me home Tuesday and we hung out for a while, and I gave him my number.  He called me friday & we went to the movies & out to eat.  He asked me out during the movie, and I said Yeah, cause I like him.  Well, Prom was Saturday, and I looked gorgeous might I add, and Derrick looked so good in his tux.  Prom was still the same as last year.....over-rated and like all the other dances.  Yet I still had a good time & after prom, me & Derrick, and J.P. & Leah went to Giovanni's to eat.  Loads of fun.  So that night was grand.  I'll have pictures for ya'll soon.  Don't worry.

Today.....  I pulled into Alan's this mornin' like usual, after I had left Keisha's house, and J.T. got out of his truck and came & sat with me in my car.  Well I saw Derrick coming from the middle school to pick me up from Alan's and I said, "You might wanna get outta my car cause im gettin ready to leave.  Derrick is comin to pick me up."  J.T. goes, "Are you datin him?" and I said, "Yeah" and J.T. said, "WELL THAT REALLY PISSES ME OFF!"  I said, "well i'm sorry but you had your chance."

And after that, like a million people has told me about how J.T. says he "hates me" and J.T.'s best friend *which happens to be one of my buddys* told me that J.T. is only sayin that he hates me cause he's really mad.  That J.T. is "in love" with me and that's why he's so upset.  I was like......J.T. never even acted like he wanted to be with me......WTF!! *lol*  But it don't matter cause I'm crazy about Derrick and even though i'd like to be friends with J.T. I won't risk losing Derrick for that friendship.

Who knows?  Maybe we will end up being friends again.  Hopefully.

It seems like I can never keep guy friends, except Corey.  Like I was best friends with one dude for 7 years.  7 freakin' years, and than one day......he just stopped talking to me. If I had known it would come to that, we could've saved us some years, but I wouldn't trade our memories for anything. I'm not sure what I done to him, I know we had a fight, but we always fought around a bit, so it can't be that.  Or maybe it is.  Either way, it broke my heart, cause I was really close to him.  Do you know what it's like to have someone by your side for 7 years, and lose them in a second?

I do, and im tellin ya right now.......it hurts like a bitch.  It's weird, out of all my boyfriends, i've never been hurt by any of them, but this guy was just a friend but he was my world and it killed me, cause I thought he'd always be in it, and now he's not.  And probably never will be again. You know, the best guy friend is always there for you, even when your boyfriend isn't, and is always there for you to talk to......that was him.

 Like, even though a part of me is hoping that we'll start being friends again.....another part of me knows, that even if we do become friends, it will never be the same.  Not like it was.  It would be hard to trust someone entirely after that.

I guess I deserved what I got though.  I've always been told that Karma will come back around on me, because I break up with guys without giving it a second thought.  Yet what people don't see, is that it does bother me to hurt guys.  It's not like I mean to, so possibly karma will understand that, and go easy on me. But...

Whatever happens......happens.  && I strongly believe that if something was meant to happen, it will happen.

So I just hope & pray that my life will work out the way God planned it to.

-*-Cassie May-*-

<groovy!

Wow.......I need to update badly!

I'll do it later!

Cass -n- J.T.